I Promise I’m Saved
Lately the news has been working my nerves with reports of so many families impacted financially by the government shut down. People at risk of losing essential food stamp benefits. People struggling to afford healthcare, medication, and federal workers working without pay. It devastating to see neighborhoods increasingly targeted with crime, theft and blight. It’s insanity and heartbreaking to know people are suffering and losing hope when hunger and homelessness meets reality and help is nowhere to be found.
Looking back, I remember lacking resources to provide for my family as a tsunami hit my household and stripped the foundation piece by piece. First, my car was repossessed, then I was delinquent on my house payments. Soon all the utility bills were in shut off status. I remember the stress of being denied public assistance, struggling to make ends meet while living paycheck to paycheck. Eventually, I was terminated from my job of seven years.
As IF a whirlwind made its appearance and left debris of destruction to clean up; everything I loved vanished into thin air. My marriage ended after facing a tragic domestic violence incident on my birthday, and I put my oldest son out of the house at age 18. Sadly, I didn’t have time to deal with anxiety caused by divorce or pain from being estranged from my son. All I knew, I was divorced, alone, scared, heartbroken & clueless of what to do next; with so many things left unsaid, I had two kids to take care of, I was desperate and I needed help fast.
My tears must have reached heaven when I met a man, who promised to love me, never leave me nor forsake me. Crazy thing, He didn’t judge me. He knew I had a broken home, He knew I was struggling to raise my kids, He knew all of my past trauma going back to my younger days, and when He wiped my tears away, I saw the words “NO EXCUSES.” I didn’t know it then, but I realized He was saying, it’s nothing that could be said to justify the things that wronged you. He took my burdens and began to teach me how to be a better person. I learned to bridle my tongue, which is still my biggest challenge. I learned to simply forgive without a reason. I learned to let go of the pain because it was too much for me to handle. My Lord God Jesus, is just like that. He knows, He cares and it’s nothing that He can’t restore.
Fast forward today, with the help of my Savior Jesus, I survived the hardships and challenges of raising kids, my relationship with my eldest son is restored. I learned how to manage my finances; getting out of debt & reclaiming ownership of my home. Now, God is working my nerves to share my private pain for His bigger purpose. And just like that, I’m sharing my truths. Truth: it hurts to be stripped down to your lowest point but it’s necessary for total restoration. Do not lose hope. BE encouraged. Knowing whatever you face with God IS possible. And that’s my2Cynt.
